I get them about 4 or 5 times a week.
From the twins' bio mum.
They all read similarly. There are few deviations, but occasionally she startles me.
They are really a window into Missy's genetic, and hereditary tendencies. They share a strong resemblance in looks, personality and IQ . . . . and lack of boundaries.
She always asks for photos which I oblige as often as I can.
Recently she has been asking for my phone number. If she called as often as she emails we would have no rest and so the answer is no.
Recently she asked for our last name.
And more recently she has been asking if the twins could stay at her place for a sleep over.
Today she asked that the once a year July visit be upped to June.
She's not bothered with guidelines or perimeters. In her mind they are "HER babies" still.
To her credit, she thanks us over and over for taking good care of the children and for giving them opportunities she could not.
She has suffered a huge loss and I don't believe the pain has dissipated any. In a sense she is but a child and will always be thus, and so in that sense it isn't really her fault she lost nearly a half dozen children, however she was never capable of protecting and nurturing them. Obviously, though, she was capable of bearing them....
She is unimaginably capable of incredible chaos
~ as is Missy.
Honestly, I see Missy in every encounter, in every email, in her very personality. (I don't see James at all).
It's kind of scary to have a thirty-something version of my child out there. I don't have to wonder what could be. I pray that it doesn't HAVE to be.
There is an urgency to affect a major change in the natural course of direction. Is the spiritual, social, economic, cultural, and educational change of environment enough to make THE difference needed in her life? What are God's plans for her and what is my part in influencing her in that direction?
So much to pray about
as worrying never accomplishes anything.