Saturday, October 13, 2012

{ Summersaulting Over the Cliff }

One of those mornings.

Right from the get-go.

She's been having a tantrum and being defiant all morning. Everyone is gone to church. She is on the trampoline in hopes of finding some peace all by herself. It's the second time we've tried it this morning. It didn't work the first time.

I must record that she had a piece of pie last evening for Vanessa's birthday. It was one of those Costco pumpkin pies. And some of the ingredients are those which we normally avoid for her. Truthfully, the defiance was slowly building up the last few days. It was a matter of time that the explosion would come.

I felt like we needed to handle the morning one way. My husband strongly felt we needed to handle it the other. Basically, we've done some of both and I feel both ways were equally unsuccessful. It seems like there is no way out of the trap. Once you are in - you are in. No amount of effort to stop the race to the precipice in the days or hours preceding a jump over the cliff will staunch the compulsion to do so. Such a helpless place for a parent to be. Every ounce of energy is used up for naught.

These times are most discouraging after seeing progress and having the hopes raised.


C Dawn's bucket said...

I hate the backslide after beginning to feel hopeful that the kids had made progress and were moving forward, even though I should expect it by now it always feels like a sucker punch to my gut.

May she be ready and able to walk forward again (however small the steps) soon.

orphanmother said...

Thank you for writing. I am right in the middle of a 45 minute screaming waiting to set the timer for a 4 stinkin minute time-out. Seriously-----thank you. You are helping me stick to it.

Mandy said...

My 3 year old was having one of those days. I could not let him out of my sight for a second. Even in my sight he was having severe impulse control issues along with just severe control issues. It's exhausting.

Oldqueen44 said...

Yes but... She takes cute pictures.

Sorry it seems like there is no getting ahead. You are it is just unbelievably slow.

Felicia said...

The healing sure takes a long time. Hopefully the backsliding will be short lived.