Thursday, April 5, 2012

New Day

And the same old rip-roaring saga all over again.

You have to come to the place where you are just okay with one person in the house being crabby, and disobedient, and that there isn't anything you can do to change the way she wants to be today.

There is nothing I can do to make her happy.

I can show her the way.
I can offer a assistance.
I can even make it hard for her to be miserable.
I can point out that she is not happy and that she is carrying a very heavy burden,

but I can't MAKE her choose anything different.

She's very, very hard right now. Bluntly contradicting me. Sneaking to get away with everything from important things to the inconsequential. Lying. Ruining other peoples surprises and looking for ways to hurt feelings.

I have kept her close. I have called her on everything. I have ignored. I have put her to bed early so others can have peace. I have asked Lord when this awfulness would end...

BUT she still has the autonomy to choose what her attitude will be.

Every day is a new day.

Unfortunately, we have a bad start nearly every day.

She has a chocolate candy sitting in the closet that she wants quite badly.... but it is not incentive enough to get through her morning routine without sneaking or boldy disobeying and then yelling and being disrespectful when it is pointed out.

I asked her to just stay in her room for awhile until I get through with the others. The others don't need the chaos she insists on creating this morning.

I pray and hope that through these every day trials we can be making a difference for her future if I cannot make a difference for today.


Mama in Uganda said...

In bed with malaria again.

I can very much relate to this post! I am sorry.


GB's Mom said...

The future is what keeps us going with Hope. I am sorry you are there, too.

Sophie said...

There is NO quick fix for this so all we have is hope for the future.