I
stopped by to drop off some medical cards I had forgotten to give the
grandparents when I had brought the little boys to live with them. I was
not expecting to see oscar in such a state. Broke my heart. I expected
him to be happy to see me like he was when I dropped him off, maybe yell, "mommy, mommy" like he always did
when I came into the room, or at least repeat, "hi, hi, hi!" Which is
characteristic of him. Instead he came out
in the porch with a blank expression and uttered not a sound. I said, "hi
baby!! Can I have a hug?" And he lifted his arms with a pitiful whimper
and laid his head on my shoulder and didn't move. I felt like I was
holding a live baby with a dead spirit.... I've seen this before in a
babe a few months old being passed between his mom and me. I didn't
expect to see it again... Utterly Heartbreaking! "I'm sorry", I said to
the great- grandpa as I hand him the weeping babe (not his usual lusty
angry cry, but a heart wrenching deep and almost silent cry), "I'm
sorry!"
Ugh! This world of neglect and addiction is a horrible place
for children.
I feel like the betrayer of that little boy's heart. He
trusted me and now he's in shock over the move.
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This is my most heartwrenching fear for my little one who has been here since he was 2 days old...
((hugs))
That is so incredibly sad.
What a heart breaker. Some kids are born without a shred of hope. (May the Lord intervene.)
That is heartbreaking. I am so sorry. May God wrap all of you in His loving arms.
You've all given him everything you had to give. I believe the Spirit will trigger so many good and comforting memories in his mind and yours. God's surely not through with him yet. We share your pain.
So heartbreaking, prayers for your heart. We worry about this with our baby.
I don't know the background of this, but your description rung my heart.
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