things are so beautiful and encouraging with Buddy's family. A 6 month celebration of progress, movement towards independence, healthy family relations, etc... Today she called me to ask me to pray for a friend in a similar situation that she has once been in. She was able to be with this friend at court today and to pray with her friend as we have done with her. They saw a miracle of answered prayer and it increased her faith all the more. She has much to offer those in need. VERY much to offer because she has an understanding and compassion that some of us will never know. She felt as though God honored her in being able to reach out and teach this other woman to bring her great need before God and then she was there to experience the joy of answered prayer. There is nothing like it.
To the human eye things are in a bleak place in regards to a certain little Miss.
I have nothing ~ except hope in what the Lord can do for her. I've lost every inch of ground ever gained with her in regards to respect and obedience. There is NOTHING that will induce her to do what is right - nothing. The misery is unending.
I'm really afraid for her.
The wringer drains me emotionally and physically. I have been unbelievably weary the last few days. Long hot showers and curling up under bed covers and shutting her out are very much my temptation.... but I keep going out of my way to be with and work with other people. There's only one or two that I have shared the extent of our struggle of late. It's the helplessness of watching her destroy herself . . . Yes, blatant disrespect irks me to no end, but she's getting away with it somehow because I have lost the energy or will to make her, and I'm not even sure if that would be the best approach at this point anyway. If I get too invested in a certain battle, the temptation to lose my own peace is there. My only consolation is in bringing this child before God in prayer.