Thursday, July 21, 2016

Fear

It's come clear that Missy, with everyone gone, the house quiet, etc.. Is not able to cover up her fear. She's afraid. Very afraid. Begging me to take her places or to have people over or to entertain her so she doesn't have to feel her fears. She's really really afraid. I think she's worked so hard to try push us away and spent all her time fighting us and now with it quiet her fears are overwhelming her and she is afraid of loneliness, of not being loved, of abandonment, of not growing up, of never being able..? I don't know exactly but terrified to have her bedroom door shut because I'm the only one home and she can't hear anything to assure her she's not abandoned. I've never seen her fears so stark. I was able to break through some of her layers this morning and have a conversation about love. She's calm at the moment. Pray for her.

5 comments:

Thandi said...

:-( Poor girl.

Emily said...

Heartbreaking! Praying for breakthrough in the quiet.

Kelly said...

I get this so much. Jackson lives in fear ALL.THE.TIME. It rules him and controls him. He is so afraid. I can't put my finger on his fears because his reasoning is so out there and beyond our understanding. He is terribly afraid of rejection and no matter what is said or done he hears negativity and rejection. It is so sad. Heartbreaking and I have not idea how to help him so no advice to give either. I pray for your whole family often and will continue.

Anonymous said...

Perhaps God allowed her to be alone mostly this week to help us all see such a very vulnerable part of her. We are so used to the hard outside and it's so numbing I'm sure... amazing how hardness and obnoxiousness very often desparately seeks to cover up a huge wound in many more people than we realize. Praying that she finds the help she needs! A.

Oldqueen44 said...

Praying for your family